who do u believe in?

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who do you believe in? i put my faith in God, blessed cuz i'm breathin. Even though its hard, that who I believe in before i'm leavin, i'm askin the grievin who do u believe in? -tupac

Today I will play the part of the philosopher.
this means starting a record of accountability from what i can observe.

I dont believe in anything. My disposition is based on what i've been taught through books, through those who have asserted with genuine confidence of truth, through the intangible that my faith in God has brought me to. The only thing I'm convinced of and believe in is that my very self cannot identify the things it believes in through its own experiences. I am at the ebb and have been here for some time, similar to the approach "that the glass is half empty".
If i re-examine my progress over the last 4 years i could either have improved from the previous year with a constant desire to keep improving or have diminished with a constant desire to keep improving. How can i be convinced of what is right, what is truth?


In writing the previous paragraph i tried as hard as possible to separate thoughts formed on what i believe in from thoughts that are raw and existing without modification. I'm not good at it. Thus ends my tenure as a philosopher.

It started with researching Wahhabism & Islam in the context of Sa'udi Arabia. It also started before that, when some vague inarticulate thought expressed through emotions informing me I don't understand why i live, and don't understand the premise and manifestations of emotions.


I seek refuge in Allah the most high from Shaitan.

Basically Muhammad Ibn Sa'ud and Muhammad Ibn Abdul Wahhab in 1745 came to a mutual understanding and rapproachment that one would support the other; the basic concept of friendship and the components its comprised of; mainly defending one another, and respecting the other's decisions.
Sometime down the road, (actually it was very early down the road) Abdul Wahhab, and then his son stepped away from their relationship with the Sa'uds, (Muhammad Sa'ud passed away first) but his lineage obviously endured. So Wahhab didn't renege on his agreement, rather he chose the path of the quiet nonpolitical pursuer of the truth. Forward to 20th century, Ibn Sa'ud (the ibn Sa'ud who founded the Kingdom we know today) revives the alliance, and forms the state of Sa'udi Arabia circa 1932?
On the promise that he would uphold the law of the land, Islam, through one way of interpreting it, the way as prescribed by the descendants of Abdul Wahhab who were shaykhs and qualified scholars.
But Ibn Sa'ud had to factor in the presence of a Non-Islamic order prevailing the world, and in this moment it was the British who occupied Iraq, and held sway in the eastern Gulf states. Ibn Sa'ud in choosing to accomodate and court a non-Wahhabi actor, specifically by limiting the territorial expansion of his Kingdom, irked his soldiers, the Ikhwan who perceived this as an act driven by unfaithfulness in Islam. Sa'ud takes them out and by 1930. The real reasons (ie an explanation from the mouth of Ibn Sa'ud) for doing so cannot be known. What we know is that Ibn Sa'ud had come to agreements with the British, that in return for military aid and $$ for developing the state, Sa'ud not interfere with British interests. One might even say this was a friendship, that comprised of components of defending one another and respecting ones decisions.
So we ask who is right? Which friendship is better? Ibn Sa'ud placed a priority on establishing a state that would prosper and participate with the world at large. But for what purpose?

According to intellectuals like Mawdudi and Qutb, the purpose of life is Islam. What is Islam? the truest expression of man making decisions to obey God's decree. One may ask/criticize the circumstance that there are many paths to obeying God's decree (referring to divisions within islam). But at the same time it is clear to
avoid sin, enjoin good, not to steal fornicate or engage usury, hold to honesty and justice and being mindful of God.
It is clear to the men mentioned above, that the world order is not operating under the best option of two decisions. Hence the world is operating under the weaker option of "ignorance"
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But the question of reforming against the will of the actors involved arises. its not a question, actually its logical that if something is imposed, it will not operate properly until the notion of imposition is replaced with open acceptance.

Hmm i'm just rehashing what i've already known.

I am working through "Ibn Sina on Theology" this wasn't my intention specifically, rather my intetion was to find answers to uncertainty. He builds on a foundation of logic that is all too new to me, a wiki entry on syllogisms and scrutiny and rehashing of his sentences has dominated the thicker part of the night.

What i can say about all this are points that I admire about him. His determination to absorb and articulate knowledge of everything that was there to know, and the discipline he used to approach it, starting with greeks who knew it before him, and improving and discovering new knowledge. MashaAllah.
Because of his understanding of a variety of subjects, and the legacy that he has left on the world, i am determined to follow his train of thought as he is explaining it, and to see if that indeed really moves me to believe in something of my own accord. So the reason why I read books, memorize this or that, admire individuals currently and in history, is because their reputations their consequences have touched upon "good" I realized a few weeks ago, that my level of iman is still simple.In imitating something that i have observed in other people as genuine piety, i am working towards that. It is best to obey something that is good, even if you dont understand it yet.


Have you considered him who calls the judgment a lie? That is the one who treats the orphan with harshness, And encourages not the feeding of the indigent. So woe to the worshippers Who are neglectful of their prayers, Those who (want but) to be seen (of men), Yet refuse small kindnesses! 107:1-7